If it's a particularly beautiful day, you'll know we made it.

It's been a good 2 weeks since i last posted. Well what was there to post anyway? Course was dragging on and on... but it was a good course and I'm really glad to have made it thus far. Mambo nights were good over the past two weeks but for now, I'm going to take a break from all this chionging and concentrate on something beautiful that's happened to me.

BB, you make me smile, you make me laugh, you make me high and you are someone who came into my life and shined ever so brightly like an evening sun. Illuminating my fears and driving away the sadness. Even though you're far away, I'll still be with you in my heart and chant Dharma Sutra to keep myself calm and think of you all the time. I'll remember Monday for the rest of my life... and it'll remind me of your sweetness and your passion.

I love you, BB.

Watching: Employee of the Month and Dane Cook's Vicious Circle
Dane Cook is so funny he makes men want to sleep with 'im. He is friggin funny.

Listening: The Greatest View - silverchair
I'm watching you watch over me, the greatest view from here.

Reading: Wrestle Crap!!!
A chronological look at all the crap you've taken from the WWF all the way to the WWE!!!
And all my warriors will come together when the Moon and the star line up and we will be as oooooone!!!!

I never broke the law!!! I AM THE LAW!!!

Having begun on this course to get re-acquainted with the laws of our armed forces, I find myself struggling to understand what exactly are the intstructors teaching. Sometimes it's a mixture of a sharing session and sometimes it's just regurgitation. Nonsensical is the word. The government paid good money to educate its officers and its men. Surely the education system must've ignited a creative or bold spark to leapfrog the methods of instructional teaching for our 3G armed force... It's a disgrace to say the least that we're still hoping that pathetic powerpoint slides is a means to an end that signifies a well prepared soldier standing in the face of the civilian environment, crystal clear on the powers he has to exercise what he believes to be the law. Against well educated terrorism, we've got a long hard road ahead and by no means will this end soon.

Watching: You Me and Dupree
Kate Hudson. So hot.

Listening: Disenchanted - My Chemical Romance
If I'm so wrong,
How can u listen it all night long.
How will it matter after I'm gone
Because you never learned a goddamn thing.

You're just a sad song
With nothing to say
About a lifelong wait for a hospital stay
Well if you think that I'm wrong,
This never meant nothing to you.

Reading: The Game
Intriguing.... very very intriguing but best not to get too caught up . I never know what I'm reading could be truth or not.

This River is Wild

I came back from a sailing that couldn't have been anymore peaceful... the 8 to 12 watch is the best watch timing. Sorry Dawn, next time let you have that slot. :)

I finally finished His Dark Materials. The ending was immensely painful. Although I should have seen it comin, I never thought the author would do such a thing, to seperate the two leads, but it was inevitable, balance and harmony can only be sought with sacrifice. But love is great, and the love for each other set the two lead characters apart, to do the right thing and to live the happiest of lives they could without each other. Without each other... without you, I still live. I still breathe the salty air of the sea and I still think of the times we were together. However short they were. However brief it was... I think and I curse the truth of the situation and that's the fact that I am better. I am better.

Watching: GroundHog Day
Some things just weren't meant to be repeated...

Listening: This River Is Wild - The Killers
The leaves are falling down on the beautiful ground
I heard a story from the man in red
He said the leaves are falling down
Such a beautiful sound
Son, I think you better go ahead

But you always hold your head up high
Cause it's a long, long, long way down
This town was meant for passing through
Boy, it ain't nothin' new
Now go and show 'em that the world stayed round
But it's a long, long, long way down

You better run for the hills before they burn

Listen to the sound of the world
Then watch it turn
I just wanna show you what I know
And catch you when the current lets you go

Or I should I just get along with myself
I never did get along with everybody else
I've been trying hard to do what's right
But you know I could stay here
All night
And watch the clouds fall from the sky
This river is wild

Reading: The Game by Neil Strauss
I haven't started but it is my next read.

Are you listening?! Woooooah oh oh oooooh oooooh

Lunch was fantastic today. With the guys, at Oriental Hotel Cherry Garden Restaurant. It certainly lives up to its name as a 5 star hotel. So does the price. Well I guess I won't be staying there for awhile. Not at least till I'm able to sustain a 5 figure salary. Relentless pursuit of more money seems superficial, not really the me I envisioned for the future, but if WL can do it, so should I. Not that I'm competing, but it's just waiting, right there for the taking. All that cash floating out there in cyberspace and in the market... Losers and winners... choose a side. Choose the right side.

Being at a hotel so close to the Mandarin, made me think of the Atrium... The exclusivity was gone... You had to tell your friends... Good things were meant to be shared, but I'd hoped we could've had a little more things privy to ourselves and ourselves alone. It was then that I remembered that I mattered to you. And I found solace in those words, when I realised that your laughter echoed in my memory and your smiles brought smiles to my turgid face too. Turgid.. haha, I guess I couldn't think of a better word to describe the toughness I try to put on. Silly, when I know I was never a tough guy emotionally...

Watching: Freedom Writers
It's no Dangerous Minds, but it certainly is inspiring enough. The acting's a tad bit exagerrated but I guess with 2 years to cover in 2 hours, any director would've found it difficult. The movie resent the message across my mind: Ivan, you're never in a position worse than others. There are others out there with bigger problems than your relationship woes.

Well it's true, but if you can't take care of yourself alone, you certainly aren't good enough to take care of others. Let's just focus on me for this while, focus on getting on the right bus. The right bus that'll lead to happiness. And happiness, is a pursuit that's achievable with or without you. But with you, maybe it'll be faster. Maybe it won't... Who knows.... we never got the chance.

You matter to me... you matter the most to me.

Listening: Sweetness - Jimmy Eat World

Reading: Same old yo.