I hope it's not depression

I don't sleep well...
I don't work properly...
I don't think straight when I need to...
I don't hear the things I want to hear...
I don't hold the person I want to...
No, this ain't love.
I hope it's not what I think it is.
I hope and I hope and I hope.
If I hope no more,
If I feel no more,
If I love no more...
Will love finally come?
I hope it's not depression.
I hope you don't see me like this...
I hope I hope I hope.

Watching: A Scanner Darkly
Nice. Real nice.

Listening: Why do you build me up?

Reading: The Amber Spyglass - Philip Pullman
3rd chapter of the trilogy by Pullman. Finally, after all this time. Edison, you can have ur books back soon.